True love waits

For a lot of things it turns out. There's the waiting to propose, which is brutally hard, in our case the waiting for the ring which was exceedingly nerve racking (custom work rocks, but requires HUGE faith in the jeweller when its this important), for Erin waiting to meet the inlaws, and at this point waiting for life to calm down enough that I can be with my fiance alone for more than 10 minutes.

The ring arrived safe and it is stunningly beautiful. A few people have commented on how high the setting is but its all jealousy ;). With diamonds this beautiful, you need a setting that shows them off. Unfortunately, one of the stones is a bit loose, so we need to get that fixed before she can wear it anywhere.

At least as important, my parents also arrived safe. It's really good to see them. We had dinner at Lee's last night and that was good, tonight my mom met Shauna, and they got along well, which is cool.

I got to see Matt today... Miss that guy like mad. We had a good chat for a while then crashed the girl's engagement party. This is how in love I must be. I HATE bars... at least ones like they went to. I hate the clothes, the music, the atmosphere... everything. I can't hear well enough to converse with anyone and I get totally agorophobic. I hate that too though, cuz I sincerely just want to have fun with everyone and all Erin's friends are cool, and they're all out to celebrate something good, but I just can't enjoy myself. BUT, I'd rather feel all that, and at least get to see Erin today than just not see her at all. Sick eh? I feel bad cuz I'm sure I come across as a bummer because of my hang ups, and I don't want that... I just can't help it. But the girls all seemed to have a great time, which is awesome.

Too many people and too much stress lately. I miss Erin like mad, and I'm feeling crazy introverted. I'm also in a bit of spiritual desolation. I hit moments of consolation from time to time, but they almost always come right after quiet time with my sweetheart, so I'm craving that more than usual. I guess if she has to spend the rest of her life with me its good she can see me like this too, but I just wanna be an uplifting person that makes her happy all the time... she deserves it. Sigh... miss my fiance.

Anyway, I sound WAAAAY too emo here, so I'm gonna call Erin and then read the newest Dark Tower book for a bit. Maybe getting lost in Roland's world for a while will help tonight.